What will become of me

All my life I've been encouraged to be whatever I want to be and do whatever I want to do. I took the do whatever I want to do way to far, I did whatever I want to do and I probably blew it. Now I sit around thinking about what I'll do and whenever I'm asked what I'll do it's,"leave me alone", "don't ask", "shut up", or what I tell my mom to brighten my day a little bit, "mom I decided I'm not going to college and when I'm 18 I'll move to Vegas". Sometimes I feel bad, my mom actually went to bed crying because of that but everythings cool now. One time I told my mom that I want to be an actress and she laughed; I was a little serious. I don't know what I'll just take life as it comes. For my mom I'm sorry and I'm going to college.